When the "a ha!" moment that crashes down on you...

So I had an aha moment today when the barstool at the kitchen table I was sitting on broke and I crashed to the hard cement floor. Ouch!

The epiphany went something like this: “I’m too heavy.” Simple as that. It is become life altering and physically painful (I have a giant bruise on my hip and I have to go to the chiropractor because my low back hurts and every time I move I hurt and it’s a good reminder that my behavior causes pain).

I have spent my lunch hour reaching out for support. I have this diet coach I'm supposed to get so I'm asking five women I know if they would consider being this for me.

I'll keep you posted on how this "a ha!" moment is changing my life and if it becomes one of my wonderful life secrets.

Thanks for listening.

Warmly,
Cicilia

I'm his exception...

Ok so I just got home from watching "He's just not that into you" with a bunch of wonderful girlfriends.

I cried. I can't believe me, a married woman cried while watching a dating movie. I admit it, I'm a hopeless romantic!

In the end each woman discovers she's "worth it" and each man discovers "he's worth it too".

When normally the rule is if he doesn't do x y or z then he's not that into you - you should normally be "the rule" not the "exception" except when...well - you are!

I'm his exception - Derek's and God's. The exception to the rule that says if you hurt me I'll run away or hurt you back. The rule that says objectifying me is the only way to have really hot s - e - x. The rule that says no one can love you like you deserve. Derek doesn't always love me like I deserve, but he tries and when he can't he points me to the Big Guy who can.

So I'm his exception...and yes it makes me so happy I could cry!

To all our wonderful lives!

Warmly,
C